you know how when you quit smoking marijuana after you've smoked for years and then you smoke every once in a while a long time after and it just totally overwhelms you like you don't even remember and you get into that deep meditation again the way it was always intended that once-in-a-blue-moon that you undulge?
ya that's the moment i'm experiencing right now. one of the first things i think once i sink into that oblivious thought is that i really want to write all the things i think about and never make a conscious effort to actually write them down. that's the other moment that's happening right after that first moment.
and it's kind of like a catch 22 deal where now that i am actually taking the time to write, i don't have the capacity to chase any train of thought and so my ethereal "third eye" has turned into something of a gaping mouth dripping dumb words drenched in grimy, muddled saliva